My Butterflies

Well now the date is set, it's hard to believe this is really going to happen.  I have a little anxiety, but that will go away and then get big right before the procedure. Thank goodness for Ativan.


There are so many things I need to do before the procedure.  I have to get an upper GI series, but it may be an upper GI endoscopy (message left for clarification).  I have to get a cardiac clearance, but the cardiologist I saw 3 years ago, (when I was contemplating having this same procedure and changed my mind), is going to be out of her office for most of September.  She had previously cleared me for the surgery, but it's probably too long ago.  
Oh my goodness, I pray, pray, pray I don't have to have another chemical cardiac stress test.  It's the worst procedure (colonoscopy isn't way up there on the fun chart, either) your heart literally feeling like it is going to explode out of your chest.  Hopefully, I can get the clearance I need from my primary care and be done with it (message left for that, too).


So, there's some things floating up in the air right now, I really would like all the ducks to roost so I can calm down.


I need to go to bed...goodnight...